I Lost a Friend Last Week

I lost a friend last week. As do most of us, I get a little weird when death comes walking by. I feel as if I don’t have the right to grieve when the person who died was no longer close to me. Is it really “my loss” when they weren’t exactly around in my everyday life? Isn’t that selfish? I begin over-analyzing every cliché and thought that comes with the idea of losing someone. But I know that’s silly and futile, and I move my thoughts on to the celebration of who they were and why I will always remember them, in the most graceful way I can. At least I try.

Honestly, I don’t know if I’m writing this to be a blog, a piece of my personal journey, or where it will go if anywhere. But I feel compelled to write and see where this train of thought takes me.

I lost a friend who hadn’t been close to me for many years. It was someone who was crucial in giving me the confidence and inspiration to be who I really was in a difficult time in my life. Someone who meant a lot to me for the short time we were close, who I hope remembered me fondly every so often, as I did them. I think she was important to me in high school because I was struggling with my identity a bit as a girl who was dating other girls- and she gave me the confidence to not only feel okay doing it but to know that it was okay. That was a part of who I was, and it wasn’t wrong. It was just me. She gave me the strength to be unapologetically myself, as she was herself. My life was better in that time because she was in it. We went to class together, we hung out together, and we went to a crazy party or two together.

I also think she was so important to who I was because it was the last year I was ‘just Malorie’. The following year, I started dating my then-boyfriend who later became my husband. I have a new identity with Damian. I have grown and evolved as we became a team and moved throughout life that way. But this friend, she was one of my closest friends throughout that last year that I was ‘just Malorie’. Before I became the Malorie I am with Damian. Perhaps, that’s the other reason she was so important.

Then, we grew apart as she went to another school. Though, I did watch from afar as we re-connected on social media years later. I watched her struggle through hard times. And then I watched as this person transitioned into who they really were all along. He became who he was finally meant to be. He got the job he always wanted, and he began succeeding. It’s such a wonderful feeling watching someone who you have known struggle for years finding themselves and living their best life. And it’s such a hard fall when they lose their life in the prime of it. I don’t think it’s my place to feel angry for him. But I do wish he could have continued to succeed and live his best life- for a lot longer. The person I knew deserved that chance.

But I guess what I can do is allow him to live on in my memory and honor who he was and who he had been. To think of him every so often. To smile when I do. And to know that I am a better person from having known him. That he was influential in giving me the confidence to be myself in a crucial time in my life. Back when I was ‘just Malorie’ and before I became who I am today.

Malorie Mackey is an actress, published author, and adventurer. Malorie grew up in Richmond, Virginia where she loved sports, the outdoors, animals, and all forms of art. She took to acting at a young age, so it was no surprise when she decided to go to college for theatre. While in college, Malorie studied body movement with the DAH Theatre in Belgrade, Serbia, voice in Herefordshire, England with Frankie Armstrong, and the business of theatre in Buenos Aires, Argentina. Malorie moved from the East Coast to Los Angeles after receiving her BFA in Theatre Performance from Virginia Commonwealth University. Upon arriving in LA, Malorie participated in the Miss California USA 2011 Pageant where she won the “Friend’s Choice” Award (by popular vote) and received a beautiful award for it.

While living on the West Coast, Malorie accumulated over 40 acting credits working on a variety of television shows, web series, and indie films, such as the sci-fi movie “Dracano,” the Biography Channel show “My Haunted House,” the tv pilot “Model Citizen” with Angie Everhart, and the award-winning indie film “Amelia 2.0.”

Throughout her experiences, Malorie found a love for travel and adventure, having journeyed to over a dozen countries experiencing unique locations. From the lush jungles of the Sierra Madre mountain range to the Arctic Circle in Finnish Lapland, Malorie began adventuring and writing about her unique travels. These travel excerpts can be found on VIVA GLAM Magazine, in Malorie’s Adventure Blog, in Malorie’s adventure show: “Weird World Adventures” and in the works for her full-length travel book.

In 2022, Malorie was thrilled to become a member of the Explorer’s Club through her work on scientific travel. Her experiences volunteering on archaeological and anthropological expeditions as well as with animal conservation allowed her entry into the exclusive club. Since then, Malorie has focused more on scientific travel.

Malorie’s show “Weird World Adventures” releases on Amazon Prime Video in the Spring of 2024! Stay tuned as Malorie brings the strangest wonders of the world to you!

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